Because of course...

Had a great day! Then I get a call from my best friend who I planned on meeting this weekend for our yearly trip. His girlfriend wants to know if I have feelings for him and if my whole relationship issues were because of him.... WTF. I DO understand, I get it, having your boyfriend be friends with a random girl you've never met, but come on!

Twelve years. Twelve years we've been best friends and if something was going to happen, don't you think it would have come up by now? Like I said, I get it, but I'm kind of hurt. And a little worried that this is the beginning of the end of our friendship. He's all I have now and if he leaves too, I'll have literally no one.

At least he admitted it was silly and he felt bad for asking, but I'm debating if I should even bother going this year. If I do, should I even bother meeting up or just go and enjoy DC and Harper's Ferry by myself?

I guess she thinks it's too convenient my relationship ended and my ex has ignored me for months and, I assume, decided not to come. I want to talk it out with her and let her know I am absolutely no threat and really want to be friends, but I'm wondering if that's too much. Like, too involved.

Ugh. I don't know. I guess I'll decide when I wake up tomorrow, then decide again if I'm in the car, if I should let him know. Man. I was really looking forward to this. I think I'll just keep my mouth shut and let her bring it up, but then again, what happened in my relationship is none of her business, and I am still recovering from it and not ok. I'm so torn in 15 different directions. I'll cross that bridge when I get to it, if I ever do.